Sometimes we are waiting on God to move in a person's heart and it seems a long agonizing wait. It is difficult to know that if the tables were turned, you would do whatever it takes. And to see that this person who means so much to you, is unwilling. It's heart breaking at times.
But what I am learning through this is how to pray it through. There is no amount of talking or explaining that is going to accomplish a willing spirit. All I can do is pray- and perhaps that is the best thing I can do.
I don't know how long God will have my marriage in this valley. Much of it depends on someone other than me. But while we are here, I can allow God to work on me and change what needs changing in my own heart and life. God can use this time to grow me and make me stronger and more grounded in Him. That all will benefit my marriage.
God is giving me a new identity. Who I am as His spirit-filled and empowered daughter. It's not who I was three weeks ago. And hopefully, who I am becoming will be even more apparent in three more weeks.
So, I am praying through this valley and waiting, sometimes not so patiently, on God to move this person's heart. But I am not standing still. I am growing, changing, being transformed- and it is BEAUTIFUL!
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