The Comforter

If you've been following my journey here, it's only really in these last few weeks that I have begun to truly understand and feel the Holy Spirit's power and presence in my life. It's such an amazing concept to me. The Bible calls Him the Comforter.

Last night I was sitting on my concrete slab porch praying through some things going on in my life. I had spent some time on the phone with a trusted friend and God had restored some of my peace through that conversation.

As I sat there, forgiving someone who wronged me and then earnestly seeking God for my marriage, I began to feel differently. We are alwaays changed when we have encounters with God and this was certainly a moment where I encountered His love through the Holy Spirit- the Comforter. I felt like a big warm blanket had just been wrapped around me.

As I continued praying, I asked the Holy Spirit to give me the words to speak to the person I needed to speak to- and He did. In fact, I wrote them down as I felt the Holy Spirit was giving me an idea of what to say. I didn't want to forget or get off track.

But what amazed me most about this encounter was how it changed my heart and restored my joy which I had allowed to be stolen for even a few hours from the day because of this unforgiveness of this person. And the comfort I felt as I poured out my heart. It really all just reconfirms what God says the Holy Spirit is and his role in our lives.

This is such an amazing journey. Walking daily in this new mindset and with this new friend (the Holy Spirit.) I don't know who I am right now but knowing who I was before and who I am becoming now- I can live with a little identity shifting Because I am a much more whole being today than I was two weeks ago.

And just to celebrate a little of that freedom I have been experiencing. It has been two weeks with no thoughts of self-harm or suicidal ideations. Now that is a pretty awesome testimony of God. To find freedom in this area-- it's amazing. The peace in my heart and the joy I feel.... and the pain that I do NOT suffer with daily anymore.... there are no words. My God is so amazing. Who knew that when He said He would set the captives free, that I would be one of them...... I feel so blessed and so loved and cherished by God that I just sometimes have to remind myself that this is only the beginning... what greater things God has for me... for all of us...

Time to fly... I'm going to be good to myself today and get a massage