In essence, my journey started long before I ever found other women trying to conceive, or even before I got married. It started when I was a little girl myself, dreaming of the day when I would have a real live baby to hold and love much like I did with my baby dolls. The Lord planted in my heart a nurturing and patient spirit that would benefit me in more ways than just motherhood.
In June 2004 I married the love of my life. We both knew we wanted a family, but we never knew that God would bring our daughter into our lives so quickly after we got married. In October I found out I was pregnant. Wow!
Our whole lives changed as a result of that day.We are now the proud parents of a jubilant and sweet 15 month old little girl; Hailey Marie. She means so much to us and our lives are much richer, much more meaningful because of God gifting her to us. And that's exactly what she is, a precious gift from the Lord.
When Hailey was 6 months old we conceived again but the Lord chose to take that baby home to heaven. I look forward to meeting my little angel one day. Recently my would have been due date passed by and I've come much closer to realizing why God took that little one home, even if I will never understand it all. I guess that's what healing really is about. Learning to accept what you can't understand.
We have been married 2 years and are faithfully waiting on the Lord for His perfect timing as to when He shall give us another child. For now, we enjoy all our moments with our daughter, completely amazed that God chose us for something as wonderful and rewarding as parenthood and for someone as beautiful as our little girl.
This is cycle 7 after our loss. Just waiting to see what the Lord has in His plans.
